I Promise You - September 17ish, 2014

First off don't let this picture freak you out.

But remember how you and I made a pinky promise? 

Although it was casually made in the back of your car, I hope that you know that I meant it.

I promised myself to you.

 I promised to do everything in my power to assure that things would work.

 I promised to be your best friend.

And after tonight, I can confidentially remind you of our pinky promise. 

Garrett you officially know every part of me, other than grumpy Kelsey in the mornings, but I've laid it all out for you:

my quirks, my giggles, my insecurities, my carnal cravings, my imperfections, my hopes, my dreams, my laughs, my tears, my fears, my ambitions, my intentions, my routines, and my heart. 

<3

Garrett, the question is no longer if I love you. The question is now when we want the whole world to know. 

I hope you understand what i tried to explain tonight. 

I wasn't trying to rush you into proposing this year. I wasn't trying to persuade you to propose in May either. To ME the timing will become the, "perfect timing", as we work to make it so. 

If we want to get married next week we could go out of our way to make it happen and there would definitely be difficulties found in that timing.

We could wait two more years and there would be trials found in the expanded timeline. 

My point is that OUR TIMING WILL NEVER BE PERFECT. 

THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS LIFETIME THAT IS PERFECT, other than our Savior :)

Our relationship will be what we make it. 

Things will work smoothly as we continue to communicate and considerate of  each other and our families. 

Things will suck if we aren't 100% honest and if we rush into things.

I don't care when you ask me to marry you. 

All that matters is that I know that i want to marry you. 

a wise blogger once wrote, 

"Once you know, you just know".   

Baby, I want to spend my life with you. I want my eternities to be rewarded to me with you by my side. I want wanna love ya forever like that. 

Let's get married when we want to.

I want to finish my sophomore year here in Cedar City, but I want to marry you with my academic career already in line.

I want to feel 100% confidant.

That's all that I ask.

So now you know that when those two things have been accomplished, 

YOU CAN ASK ME YOUR QUESTION.

And my answer will be yes. 

Actually, my answer will be: 

I love you.